Posing.

so yeah don't blog that much so here i go ahhhh! i am so not trying to shove anything down people's throats either.



people now a days try to lose who they are to become apart of the "in" crowd, well in that changing process they lose sight of the person they once were. I've learned last october to be myself and not to care what people say think or do and i can honestly say i've kept up with that. You shouldn't be ashamed of who you are it doesn't matter if your the least popular kid at school or the smartest nerd or that emo kid, or that gay kid, it doesn't matter imbrace yourself for who and what you are.i really don't know where i'm going with this so bare with me :] it may seem like being myself was horrible and it was like against the law or something and i would always try to act hella cool and shit,but now i know i don't need that. if you don't like me then too bad =/. lately i've been like blah about me being me, i just wanted to switch bodies with someone else and have a better life, but everyone has there ups and downs. Me being me got me in this situation..a good one.

a few days ago my close friend tells me that he looks up to me and admires me for not caring what people think and how i can stay hapy even when bad things are going on. i was quite shocked, cause i mean who gets that in life? i guess what you do in your life can affect people who are involed in your life,aha. idk, but having someone that looks up to you for being yourself feels so good. It's like the greatest gift someone could have given me, i kinda cried. it made me feel tons better about the person i'm becoming and what imma do in the future. i guess what im trying to say is that being yourself pays off in the long run. it may seem like crap and shit ,but be patient and something amazing will happen just think positive, even if your having the most shit-tastic day ever, there will always be a good side to it and if you tell yourself there won't be, then guess what there most likely won't be. just stop the bullshit and live your life for you and no body else, life is too short to hold grudges and be mad, just be yourself and let life flow...

so yeah being myself got me alot, losing a bestfriend,heartbreak,losing friends, getiing in trouble with my parents,second guessing myself,not being good enough, great friends, more but most of all..RESPECT.

haha yeah im done ranting bye :]