You.

So today i got my answer that i've been dying for, even if it's not the way i thought it was gonna be it's okay. I was just unclear on how you were feeling and stuff. Before i start lemme say that i appriciate that you won't walk out on me =] Love ya! Where to start...You started acting 'weird' ahah and i wasn't sure if you had feelings for me or not so i had this huge fuzzy cloud over my head of unanswered questions. Honestly, i have to say that i kinda liked. I thought you finally had come around to the 'good side' ahha if you catch my drift? And don't get my wrong it made me hella happy. So when you invited me to the Mall/Movies and that you'd pay it kinda made me think more, but now i know you're just being an Awesome friend...stracth that best friend =]I thought that my waiting had paid off and i was finally getting my chance, cause i stoodby watching you get hurt by all of these people i knew and i thought to myslef, "i'd never do that to you and i would Do everything in my power to make you smile." But i guess i was more of the friend type to you and that's okay. It just sucked at the time cause i see all these people getting their chance and i'm like "where's mine, is something wrong with me?" cause i know we kinda talked in the summer but then you moved on hella fast to someone better and new. So then today when we finally seen eachother your 'body language' was messing me up, real talk. I liked it though, from anyone else it would be normal but i was still unsure of my question. Then i left and seen you again and i got butterflies and i honestly don't know why so i took my friend into the plate store so i wouldn't have to pass you, but you came in there too =) And yeaah you know the rest haha 'reflects' And i thought to myself that i would just talk to you so that i can understand better.So the rest of the day all i thought about was you and what was going on. Until you called i thought you were into me, but your not. I don't have feelings for you, i just didn't want to waste my time building up feelings for you if you didn't feel that way, so that's why i had to know. Now that i do you can act however you want to act around me without me thinking stuff, cause then i'll know it's just you being you :) and that's all i can ask for. SHANAY i know your reading this

CrushCrushCrush

So it's been awhile so to start of i'm offically 18 years old :]
it feels the same so far so stop asking. I just hope everyone has a good holiday and safe one too. I spent Christmas eve at my Great grandma's house. it was pretty fun with the family. the food was hella good to. So through that and Christmas at my house i got a sweater, body spray, a nikon (d90) and 605 dollars (no i'm not rich) but i'm gonna buy a plane ticket to atlanta with the money so i'm using it for something good. Overall This year is good :] and to those who are having a shitty Day just smile and laugh, it goes a long way. THINK POSITIVE.

I have a crush but you have someone and it kills me. The thing about it is that you are so oblivious to the fact that i have feelings for you =/ sucks but what can i do..Nothing at all. so i have to do what i always do and move on.. pretend it never happened.

well not much to say so add more later..

Day Dreaming

Love is powerful word and we use it so loosely. I mean you shouldn't say it until you truely mean it. How are we sure if we're in love with someone? I guess it's when you don't care who see's you two together, someone who can be themselves around you and vice versa. When their mad your mad, when their sad you want to do everything in your power to cheer them up. When their in need your there with a helping hand. Love is like a little universe that involes the two special people. When their gone you feel as if your little universe has ben destroyed.
so how are we sure of love? I guess a roaring feeling overcomes your soul and you want to yell it from the top of your lungs
that's my vision of love<3