Re-Run

I'm baaaak, after hella days away. ahha this blog is pretty random just me and my thoughts. So I feel like crying right now but don't know why. So recently was valentine's day <333 and it was good. We had a rally and gabe Bondoc was there (; he was okay i guess. I gave the huge-ass card and balloon and cookies to That special person and they liked it , so that was good ;D I expected the worse. I was somewhat nervous and didn't know what to say, so i might have looked like a dumbass. I hungout with jonathan after school that was fun ahhaha. Man i missed that kiddo<3. I just felt like i was on cloud nine everything was going great. I even talked to EK online for the first time in like forever. I was so happy until i think today everything came rushing back to me like a huge wave full of David's problems. I just couldn't get my mind off of things and it sucks. I couldn't get outta my mind that EK lied to me and hurt me, uhhg. To top it off the person that liked me doesn't like me anymore, i don't even know why. They said it was "Different" whatever that means ideekay =/. I just can never met someone and stay close to them but oh well, their loss not mine.

i just wish that people can see the goodness and the love they have right in front of them instead of wasting it on a some dumbass fling. I'd be there for you when yed me the most. I'd never let you go and love you (; not like this people you date for like one month or whatever. I'd be different. I doubt that you liked me but it's bad to assume so i won't. I mean your excuses still stick with me today, i can't get them out of my head. They were hella lame and shit. Of course i wouldn't be okay with you moving i mean who would and I know we'd get along, BULLSHIT! It just hurts that you showed little compassion for me and my feelings. I'm not being like clingy or whatever but i'm just trying to express myself. I want you to be happy, but i want to be happy too and i'd be happiest with you<3.

Annnd you i don't even understand you, how is it different. I felt like crying a little but didn't wanna seem like a PUSSY. I mean I felt like Below your standards and everything. there was no reassurance there for me. I thought we clicked, but i guess not. I knew i shouldn't have developed feelings for you cause like you said you get over people easily. Guess i have to live with that. It just really made me sad. You need to figure out what you really want, uhhg.