Not depressed.

Dude why am i so freakishly ugly? i can never catch a break. I always get turned away by people that i fall for.I mean am i not that good enough or something? i know i get so shy that i don't even talk to you but that's because when i like someone i think that i am smothering you and stuff by talking to you all the time, i guess i need some reassurance in my life.I really don't want to end up like my friend K.W she always ruins her relationships and what not. i'm just scared i'll end up like her and crap.basically what i'm trying to say is that whenever i like someone i get hurt and the end result is it makes me feel ugly inside and out, so that's why today i was asking poeple if they thought they were ugly or not? most of them said they didn't. I was thinking if these people had so much confidence how come i can't? i guess it comes within yourself haha heinz SELF confidence haha. I'ts just everyday i don't speak to you i fell like blah. I know that's hella selfish but that's what makes me happy haha gaaah.i enjoy walking you to class and what not even if we have nothing to say to each other....my bad! haha but i guess your always late so you have to rush there or you're just avoiding me haha. to add on to my lack of self confidence this one person was talking to my crush and my crush called them cute , IDK i was waaaaay jealous when i read that shit idk? i just was. it made me feel ten times worse then i was already feeling. i should have never told them that i liked them, it would make things so much easier, we would be good friends a nd crap but you're so damn cute...too bad i'm not!
P.S. and i know i barely know you.... but i wanna get to know you :]
Idk call me crazy foo' but i like you.


Words can't explain how i feel.

so my ex is being hella distant idk? she doesn't think it's hard for me not to talk to her and shit but it is. he never belives me when i say i miss her but i honestly do miss her <33 i wish she would belive sometimes.